I went to my 2nd OA meeting last night. It was okay. Had a very stressful day related to one child and his schoolwork or lack of...Anyway I thought I was in control because I chose to eat. It started out with me stopping at the bakery to order mini pecan pies for a woodworking presentation. Yes, I can find any way to include food into a non-food event! I got cookies for myself and my kids.
Went home and ate my way through the day. Depressing and didn't actually relieved the stress. What did help was to take action, I made a lot of phone calls to get help for my child. That worked much better than hitting all of the sweets in the house. I also cleaned out the pantry. Got rid of a lot of sweet stuff and made a commitment to bring healthier foods into the house. Also got rid of any sweet liqueurs. Poured them down the drain. They smelled so good! Yikes! Getting rid of the liquor served 2 purposes. I know sugary drinks get my cravings going and I figure if a teen is going to start experimenting, we need to get rid of temptations!
Interestingly, in my meeting they were working on the 8th step which is to make amends to others you may have hurt with your food addiction. I figured the only one I hurt is myself. I am not a danger driving sugared up. But the reality is, that my behavior for years (as long as I can remember) has been driven by my need to get food, my guilt after eating it, etc. This has not left a lot of time, thought, or energy to be a great parent, wife or friend.
I have been dragging my feet about committing to a food plan. I've got to get going on that!
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