I have chosen to give up both sweets and alcohol as I think there may be a relation. I will have one cup of caffeinated tea a day. I have found that helps me get over the draggy feeling of getting off the white stuff.
I still feel full from all of my indulging yesterday. This is how I feel on white flour and sugar:
Pros:
full and satisfied
love, love love the taste of sweets
when eating chocolate, energized
illusion of eating less, example 2 starbucks dark choc grahams fill me up like a meal. So I don't eat the healthy meal.
Cons:
I forego healthy foods in lieu of sweets
Stuff like ritz crackers, I can't get enough of those. Not filling
I gain weight
Feel less like going to the gym
Guilt
Out of touch with my muscles.
I plot and plan my next "fix"
I can't have just one
Commitment:
I will do plan out my meals, make lunch at breakfast
I will continue to journal
I will go to OA meetings
I will read OA literature
I will shop responsibly, for kids as well.
I will go to the gym
It's 5 p.m. and I am exhausted, hungry even though I've had some cheese and pepperoni and popcorn. Definitely don't have the really full satisfied feeling I know and love. I do feel like I am deflating.
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