Experimenting with (and failing) to control my sweet intake

On Sunday I bought 4 packs of dark chocolate covered graham crackers for an experiment. I remembered that they gave me a feeling of fullness. I was going to try eating one pack a day. They are 270 calories. I ate them in the car on the way to Trader Joe’s. The quality was not as good as I remembered.

I ate well the rest of the day.

Monday, while hemorrhaging from a perimenopausal menstrual cycle, I ate my one serving of choc covered grahams after breakfast and then continued on with other sweets throughout the day. I get credit for not eating the funfetti cake at my kindergartener’s 100 days party.

This morning I am having tea and had a piece of pork with balsamic vinegar to hopefully counteract the iron from the massive bloodletting of yesterday. I am off to a good start. I took Martha’s advice and went out for coffee (sweetened with stevia) with a friend and have agreed to join a second book club that meets on Wed. afternoons. As much as I love it here, I miss my family and friends back home. I am here for the duration and need to commit myself to that and make some deeper relationships.

I also think that making some art outside of my schoolwork might be helpful. I spend a lot of time at home, mostly cleaining, reading, eating and thinking about eating…

Well, things have not been going so great. I went to the bakery to buy cookies for the police who helped with the accident last week. I bought molasses cookies for myself. I felt like if I bought 2, everyone would think they were for me, which they were, so I bought 4 thinking they'd think they were for a group. I ending up eating 3 and giving one to my kid.

Then I came home and finished off the Keebler chocolate covered grahams from last week, some ritz crackers. I did eat vegetable soup and oatmeal as well.

Positive things: I did get my thyroid tested today. I'd love to hang all my eating problems on that!!! I will be finding an Overeaters Anonymous meeting.

Key Learning: Did not realize that I eat when stressed.