3 Days of Sitting for 10 minutes

I don't know if it's helping with my eating. I am not longer restricting my diet. I did eat some Pepperidge Farm graham cracker gold fish while shopping in target and I did shove some pretzels in my mouth while standing in the pantry but nothing too bad. Unlike a glass of wine, I don't sit and savor the treat. It is usually a sneaky, rushed affair (like an affair, I supposed). I still choose unhealthy over healthy...

So I went to a Psychologist Today to Get To the Bottom of The Eating Problem!

He thinks that I am eating for a reason.  For some kind of comfort.  Yeah, I may have a sugar addiction but he thinks that if I can figure out why I am eating like this the problem will resolve itself.  Wouldn't that be fabulous! I need to get to the bottom of it.  My assignment:  To sit for 10 minutes a day and do nothing.  I can't even keep the timer in the same room with me.  

We discovered that I never just be.  If I am going to sit, I am going to read.  If I'm not sleeping I never stop doing...I can never do enough.  Sometimes I feel like I am just one step away from the grim reaper...

Anyway, I did sit.  It was not painful.  when the alarm went off, it was a shock. 

I did have some honeybee-shaped graham crackers, some M&M's and Razzles (the candy that turns into gum).  I do not have the desire to binge.  Perhaps I am already cured! LOLOLOL!

It's all in my head, not a physical craving

I think I've figured it out. The other night at 9 p.m. the three dogs next door were barking incessantly (windows were open) The kids were complaining they could not go to sleep. I stressed over that as well as for the welfare of the dogs who had not been let out since God-knows-when.

Feeling powerless I ate cookies. I did end up leaving a nicely worded note on her door.

When I feel completely out of control in a situation, I'll eat. Note to self: Carry a reserve candy bar when I fly, in case the plane is going down! By then it will be too late to work through the problem. Being proactive with the note-writing or closing windows and putting music on in the house might have been helpful.

The next day I ate healthy, which for me is good no snowballing of the situation.

Yesterday, I forgot to eat. I know, sounds stupid, who forgets to eat. I realized at 11 that I hadn't had breakfast. So I was starving when I got home and had 1/2 bagel with cheese. Then I ate 2 good humor bars, some cookies and a piece of Italian Bread with cheese. Moving on today. Not worrying about it. Busy stressful weekend ahead. But that's no excuse!