Control and Eating

I have realized that my compulsive eating stems from my need to control everything. My house needs to be clean, my kids, husband and dog need to behave the way that I want. In public I need everyone to follow the rules: stop at stop signs, be polite in the store, control their kids, not talk on their cell phones to loud. My list of rules is endless. If anyone does not behave they way I expect I get stressed and want to eat something. Philosophically, I know that I have no control but it doesn't stop me from reacting.

Another thought: Once I have been eating healthy and have dropped a few pounds, I often start eating unhealthy foods again. Just a little...and before I know it I am back to full-fledged consumption of whatever I want. The fact that I don't put 25 lbs. on overnight allows me to think that I have it in control and can eat like this. But then one day I wake up and I'm say to myself, "Whoa, what happened?"

I spoke with husband today. He said I am nicer when I am eating healthy. I cook more when I am eating healthy. Those are two good reasons to stay the course!