Still Sliding....

I was ready to close down this blog after yesterday's bender! I had a party the night before after having my 6 year old go missing...he was found safe and sound. At the party I ate chocolate covered pretzels (white, dark, milk and naked) all mixed together. Delicious. Along with chocolate chocolate chip cookies from Trader Joe's (yummy) and a lemon tart (melts in your mouth) The red wine I usually drink tasted awful so I had to glasses of white. I felt horrible yesterday a.m. so I ate the rest of the chocolate chip cookies (still yummy) more of the tart (still great) and the pretzels. I put a bunch of the cookies in my kid's lunches to get them out of the house. When I was not eating all of this crap I was eating shrimp cocktail and a fruit smoothie. Last night, while feeling sick, I still shoved down a Klondike ice cream sandwich in the 3 minutes it took my husband to go out and pick up one of the kids. I slept for 8 hours and don't feel great but am off to the gym.

I know the menstrual cycle has some inpact on the cravings and the drive to get this food but this is ridiculous. It all started when I ate the chocolate graham crackers last Friday. It is like depressed people on meds who feel better, think they are cured and go off the meds...Each time I think I can control the bad carbs...