I was feeling great on Thursday, very productive. Friday I was walking to school and didn't feel great due to colds or allergies and I was hungry. I hadn't packed all of my various snacks because I hadn't felt hungry wasn't eating as much. I thought I would test myself and buy dark chocolate grahams from Starbucks. They were good, not great. Filled me up and gave me a boost...I ate a salad for lunch but did have 4 of the dark chocolate nonpareils that I'd been wondering about. Saturday, I got off to a good start but went to Trader Joe's in the a.m. while hungry. I bought some cinnamon grahams (that looked how old-fashioned grahams should look and some dark chocolate brownies with french sea salt and pretzel rolls for the kids.
I did take a taste of the brownies, grahams and pretzel roll. They were all delicious! I didn't just take a taste. I ate more. Sitting in the pantry, after husband left to pick up a kid. Bummer.
After I ate the graham crackers I wasn't craving sugar but I figured since I went off my healthy eating that I'd "taste" the things I'd been missing. That and a little stress...
I even told myself not to feel guilty after the graham crackers because I'd given myself permission....didn't work. I still feel guilty. I am irritable and snapping at kids, husband and dog. I think it's because I am angry with myself and not because I physically feel bad.
Today's another day.
Key Learning:
One taste does set me off.
Guilt is woven in with eating unhealthy carbs - don't know if they can ever be separated.
Unhealthy carbs do give me a full feeling
Sweets after a period of no sweets don't taste too sweet to me!
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